忸じく怩じたる思おもい

expression, noun

deep shame; strong embarrassment (over one's own actions)

Formal/literary expression for a lingering, painful sense of shame about one's own conduct. Often used in reflective or confessional contexts.

• 彼かれは自じ分ぶんの失しつ言げんを忸じく怩じたる思おもいで振ふり返かえった。

  He looked back on his slip of the tongue with deep shame.

• あの時ときの判はん断だんミスは、今いまでも忸じく怩じたる思おもいだ。

  I still feel deeply ashamed about that misjudgment back then.