内ない心しん忸じく怩じ

taru-adjective, adverb taking the 'to' particle

ashamed deep down; inwardly mortified; blushing with shame at a memory

Literary, somewhat old-fashioned expression for a deep, private feeling of shame or embarrassment, often when recalling a past action. Used with たる or と as a たる adjective or adverb.

• 彼かれは内ない心しん忸じく怩じたる思おもいで過か去この失しっ敗ぱいを振ふり返かえった。

  He looked back on his past failures with deep inward shame.

• 内ない心しん忸じく怩じとして、その場ばに立たち尽つくした。

  Overcome with private mortification, I stood there frozen.