血ちを吐はく思おもい

expression, noun

dreadful thought; painful experience; terrible ordeal

Idiomatic expression describing a deeply distressing thought or experience, as if one is vomiting blood from the emotional pain. Often used with verbs like する or だ.

• 彼かれの裏うら切ぎりは血ちを吐はく思おもいだった。